Tuesday, February 26, 2013

Selah

I have read  that "Selah" means "stop and listen". I love to do that, right here.
I wanted to steal a page from my son's journal..."The Psalms of Shane", but I looked everywhere for it and couldn't find it at all. It doesn't help that we have an excess of composition notebooks in this house. At any rate, I thought about his little book of praise today. He started writing in that book the day after he had a very very difficult day. He woke up and had already repented before God so now it was time to come to me and that sometimes is more difficult. "I already asked God to forgive me and help me be a better listener. Do you forgive me?" These are some of my most favorite moments of being a parent. The moments when we can TOTALLY show the amazing LOVE of Jesus. "Yes, of course, I forgive you, I had already forgiven you and I love you like crazy! My love for you will never end Shane, no matter what!"

His book of Psalms came out of his life wrenching moments. Just like many of the Psalms David wrote. Indeed my sweet son, you are a man after God's own heart.

Today, as I sat discouraged about some of the "extra" things that I do. The work and time that I put in to some things seem at times not really to matter to others. You plan and prepare and its on your mind continuously, but when the rubber hits the road, sometimes its really only on your mind, it doesn't matter "that much" to others...and it can get discouraging. I could feel it...."The Psalms of Lisa" were about to be birthed.

I had to walk away from my list of things to do. Just for a moment. I closed my door, went to my spot, and asked the Lord if I'm really supposed to be doing this, because I just want to cry. I don't want to care about this any more, maybe its time for me to lay it down, walk away, let someone else handle it...or NOT.

He reminded me, as He is so faithful to do:"You do these things for me. Out of obedience, you not only do these things, but you do them with excellence, because I love you!" I love you too Lord! "You do these things for My Glory, for My children, it may seem like 'just an event', but it is My desire to minister to these people. It is on My mind and I'm the only One that matters. 'Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord, not for human masters...' "

Oh how things work so I can learn a lesson. So I spent the rest of my time reciting "The Psalms of Lisa". I just spent a few minutes being thankful...because really...His love endures forever...and I have much to be thankful for. (Modeled after Psalm 107, which ironically enough I read this morning during my quiet time!)

Give thanks to the Lord for His very timely, yet very gentle reminders.
His love endures forever.
Give thanks to the Lord for my children are really my educators.
His love endures forever.
Give thanks to the Lord for His Word that gives me everything I need to live.
His love endures forever.

to Him who is always on His throne and is never surprised by anything or anyone,
His love endures forever.
to Him who is purposeful in all things, who placed the moon and stars precisely where they are,
His love endures forever.
to Him who provides for our every need,
His love endures forever.
to Him who rescued this woman when she was just a girl,
His love endures forever.
to Him who longs for all of his girls to have an encounter with Him like no other,
His love endures forever.

He remembers me, knows me, knows how to speak my love language,
His love endures forever.
He gives me strength to do the things He has called me to do,
His love endures forever.

Thank you Lord for meeting me where I am, for speaking truth to my heart, for gentle chastisement and reminding me I do what I do because you first loved me...and I love you too (and I'm glad I stopped and listened). I do it as unto you Lord! --Selah

1 comment:

Michelle said...

His love surely endures forever, what a wonderful practice of writing your own Psalms.